Anger and addiction are two primal manners in which most of us attempt to deal with the bullshit of life.
We learned early in life that when we toss a tantrum, lull the rational mind to sleep or amp-up the rational mind into false exertion with substances our thoughts and emotions shift. Only problem is these behaviors are a hot and sexy shemale disguised as a woman. Wow! Surprise ending. Or perhaps NOT!
Anger and addictions are the “sound” that hurt and fear make as they rapidly exit the soul. Hurt and fear are incompatible with the human soul; and, just like your body expels two-day old sushi you purchased at a convenience store of some gas station, the human soul rids itself of unwanted and unhealthy toxins.
Anger and addictions feel fantastic when we leverage these so-called healing attempts. If it feels good it must also heal good. Right?! Problem is this hedonistic approach is short lived and sided. Or perhaps NOT!
Anger, like an orgasm, is a rhythmic expulsion of physical tensions and expression of emotion. That short burst of energy releases the toxins and feels awesome. I know after I have an explosive episode of anger behaviors I need a smoke; and a fucking nap. God I feel good. Great to release those toxins and grunt. Like a man.
Alcoholic and other drugs calm our fear and soothe our deepest wounds.
Anger and addictions work as advertised. And work well.
We are invincible when using drugs. Those assholes who hurt us, betray us, abandon us can no longer take advantage. When we put on the cape and mask and become Captain Budweiser no foe is too great to take down, no mountain of manipulators too high to scale, no asshole to hidden to expose. We take the bullies prisoner in some weed-induced, inter-galactic battle fantasy of good versus evil. Then the movie ends and the real horror begins.
Anger helps us get and keep what we want. We flight for what we believe in. Fighting express our emotions, expels the physical responses our bodies experience when we are threatened; and if we win, we revel in the spoils of our victory. Most of the celebration taking place between the ears. Hell is in our head. Revenge is sweet in the drive in theater of our mind.
Pouting is how we get the BF or GF to notice us and give us those “strokes” we so desperately need because we are an insecure looser. Isolating is how we secure a sense of security. Hiding in mamma’s basement watching Netflix saves me from being bullied and reinforces my pussiness. Yelling and threatening is how we show people we think we have a bigger dick (aRe nd are the most self-centered) than anyone else and that we, more than others of course, should get our needs met FIRST!
Anger and addiction are the clearest sign that we are in pain, that we feel threatened, that we are wounded and afraid. And, most importantly, that we are avoiding healing and taking control of our lives. Lets hear it for the wimps and pussies too fearful or lazy to actually attempt to heal.
Anger and addiction feel great when we use them because those toxic emotions are quieted, fooled for the moment. Those nagging hurts and fears always return. And with reinforcements. Then we counter with longer binges and more intense anger behaviors. Yeah for the merry-go-round of healing avoidance. Yeah for the clowns who hide from healing. Year for the freaks who embrace healing and personal responsibility.
The alternative is to learn how to effectively deal with the bullshit of life.
How? You ask.
Well ain’t that the million dollar question.